DEADWOOD

So Deadwood was one of the scariest moments that I’ve had in a while. Aside from the town being so haunted and full of ghosts, this will be one place that I’ll never forget. Here’s why: while upstairs investigating alone, right after being touched, I felt something that I’ve never felt before. It was a panic attack from a spirit. I was in the hallway after investigating that last room and just needed a moment to calm down. After a minute, I felt something walk up to me. I was in pitch darkness, but felt as if a man was standing face to face with me. Then this panic set in. I heard a breath and felt it hit me. I jumped back as I started having a terrible panic attack that must have lasted only for a minute but it felt like it lasted forever. There was no one around. I gathered myself and charged out of there to meet the guys.

Now here’s where it scared me more: for about two weeks after my panic attack, I could be walking around my house or wherever and suddenly freeze up. I would then feel a breeze hit my face as something walked up to me. It didn’t take me long to realize that whatever did this to me in Deadwood had now followed me home.

Later, while watching fireworks, I had another attack. I saw one firework fall over and point right at me. I quickly got up and moved. Thankfully, nothing happened and I sat back down. Then bam! Full on panic attack. There were people around, but it was like they weren’t there to me. I felt so far away from them. I was hoping for help but couldn’t talk. I realized what was happening and decided to ride it out for a while. I needed to endure this attack instead of freaking out. What I thought was only ten minutes ended up being more like forty-five. I checked my heart rate with my Fit Bit and saw that it was 140 beats per minute. Someone asked me if I was ok and I snapped out of it. I got up and walked around. Nothing happened… until I sat back down.

I felt that breath on me again as I sat. It wouldn’t let me get up. I tried and tried for like another forty-five minutes before I was able to stand up again. I’ve had some more small moments since then, but after a while, they slowly went away. I now truly know what a panic attack is. Having these attacks because of a spirit was no joke. I can only imagine how tough it is for people who get them regularly.

Every lockdown teaches me something new. This one taught me I’m alone on this journey in my life, and the only thing I have is just me and my aura. We’ve been through a lot together. Deadwood is now just a panic attack that’s followed me in memory. I‘ve left that feeling behind.

-Aaron

Comments

Posted On
Feb 27, 2016
Posted By
Kaitlyn

Hey Aaron,

I absolutely love you on the show! You always make me laugh and smile. The Deadwood episode freaked me out pretty bad and I watched it by myself, at night,lol. Not the smartest idea, but I’m a die hard Ghost Adventures fan. I also just purchased two of your women’s shirts and I’m psyched to get them.
I had been thinking lately of places the G.A.C can go to and I think you all should do something involving Marilyn Monroe. After watching The Black Dahlia episode, for like the fifteenth time, it got me totally interest in old hollywood. Just a thought.

With Support and Admiration,
Kaitlyn

Posted On
Feb 27, 2016
Posted By
Victoria Dickens

Hello Aaron,
I have seen that episode and got very worried about you after that had happen. And have always wonder if the feeling ever went a way. I am glad that things have gotten better over time. I have always felt more drawn to you then I have the other guys you work with on the show. Aaron try not to let things get to you to much on a emotional level because by doing so you let them attach to you to go home with you. And one day you may not be so lucky and it could get you hurt or even worse. But I do pray for you and hope for the best. And with these attacks if you need someone one to just listen or talk to my email is up top. Bye aaron and can’t wait till the next show.

Victoria

Posted On
Jan 23, 2016
Posted By
Nancy Claypool

This episode was very interesting, and I was wondering why you wear that special lace-up vest during your lockdowns. Nancy

Posted On
Nov 19, 2015
Posted By
Alison Turk

Hey Aaron
I’ve been a fan of Ghost Adventures for years now and became hooked primarily because of you. I remember you being reluctant at the beginning to do investigating and tasks alone that Zak wanted you to do and I understood that reluctance and fear mixed with curiosity. I have to be honest and tell you that your screaming and running was extremely entertaining lol. You definitely seem to have overcome a lot of those fears and become accustomed to the weird stuff you have to do because now you seem much more at ease with things. I’d like to say I believe in ghosts but without having had the experiences myself I’m afraid there’s still this skepticism that is always looking for another reason for the evidence you collect. Having had a complete 180 degree change in my life recently, I’ve begun to question everything I once accepted as truth and ghosts are part of what I would have believed in in the past. You’re lucky to have the opportunity to continually prove their existence to yourself but like I said, without personal experience I just don’t trust enough to take anyone’s word for it. Not even likeable, crack-me-up Aaron’s. That won’t keep me from watching every episode you put out though. 😉
Ally

Posted On
Nov 10, 2015
Posted By
Daniela

Wuhhhh…. Intense… VERY intense…. I feel with you, Aaron.

You may be alone on this journey in your life – but only if YOU don’t let someone in and share every experience with this woman you choose; the good and the bad.

I really wish you all the best in life. Your eyes can’t hide your desperate loneliness that tries to roll over you like a huge shark, trying to get his own little ‘bite’ out of you.

Don’t stay alone. DO SOMETHING AGAINST IT! YOU DESERVE happiness in LOVE, Aaron Goodwin 🙂 !

All you have to do is find a woman who loves you with everything you are and aren’t 😉 It may look the most difficult task to ever take on – but don’t be afraid, Aaron. Your heart and soul will lead you to the right woman. And don’t forget to love her as well with everything she is and isn’t. Otherwise the relationship is bound to not last as long as you want it to…

Have a wonderful November and December 🙂 !

Let hope and love in your heart – and you may be surprised with the outcome. 😉

I know we’ll probably never meet in this life, but I truly, deeply and honestly wish for you to find happiness, love, fun and a woman with whom you can ride into the sunset aka go ghost hunting 🙂 😉

Best wishes from (not a fan, but a soulmate and twinflame in everything…)
Daniela

Posted On
Nov 10, 2015
Posted By
Mackenzie

My name is Mackenzie and I’m from missouri.
I just watched the deadwood episode because I recorded it and I have finally found the time to watch it. that episode was intense. As I was watching, I felt very panicky as well through out. I don’t know if it was just he intensity of the episode or what. But as I was watching there was a part where Zac was investigating at the stairs at the hotel where he interviewed John and there was an EVP caught and it said “unexplained voice” and I clearly heard “I’m already there” I thought that was interesting.

Posted On
Nov 03, 2015
Posted By
Jackeline H.E

I was once told by somebody I love, that spirits will often attach themselves to people with bright lights. That our brightness shines, and to them it feels like the light they are meant to follow to ascend to wherever they are meant to go. They follow you because of your light, but it’s not the light they are supposed to find, so it’s up to us to clear our auras and out energy from any beings that are not meant to be attached to us. It made a lot of sense to me, and also explained a lot of things that seem to occur to people quite often. Thankfully you are aware of yourself and the energies around you! Anyway, I am always delighted to hear and read of your accounts as part of the Ghost Adventures crew. I’ve been a fan since the start, and have loved the way you have all grown and developed with your experiences. It’s a secret…but you have always been my favorite 😉 Keep it up, you inspire so many people!

Posted On
Nov 02, 2015
Posted By
Jenn

I have been to Deadwood and the Black Hills. Very amazing , dark and beautiful. You can feel the energy surrounding the town.
The Deadwood episode was great to watch, I can only imagine what you felt. Very powerful. Thank you for sharing your experience, not many want to , or even like to talk about their experiences with Spirits. I have 2 in my home and i know who they are. I’m not afraid of them.

Jenn~

Posted On
Nov 01, 2015
Posted By
Tara

That’s a beatiful thing, Aaron. Having a calling (job) where you’re able to learn constantly and even have greater awareness for others… I used to have panic attacks and that feeling is something that can’t be explained. For me, it felt like someone was chasing me with a knife, but no one was there. No one knows about that unless they experience it firsthand.

Thanks for sharing that and for doing what you do. I know you’ve given up a lot of yourself to live your life. I’ve been a fan since the start and you’ve given me joy when I had absolutely none in life. You need to hear that. I TRULY appreciate what you do. Please take care of yourself out there and know that it just keeps on getting better!

Xo

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